Being away from everything familiar, everyone I love and care about has put so many things into perspective for me. You really see people for who they are when you are away. Who it is you can depend on and trust, who is there for you when you need them most, and who isn’t. Some people I have always known would be there, some have come as a surprise. But who you can Depend on, capital D. That’s a biggie. You can understand a lot about the nature of a person if they have dependability.
There is also something to be said of all the people met along the way. The ones you will retain lifelong relationships with, ones who will become part of your family, plans, your future. The people you know will always be in your life, throughout your whole life, the people you wish will always be in your life, but won’t, some that you wish wouldn’t be a part of your life, but are, and some that might just be part of your life for a certain amount of time. The perfect person for that perfect time. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. True story.
CHANGE, once my enemy (?) now my… friend? Maybe not enemy so much as this thing I once feared. But why fear things that aren’t known? SOLITUDE. Being alone with myself, also scary. Growing up with a huge family, a sister close in age, friends as close as fam., an open door at all times, I was never alone and I liked it that way. Now, I live alone- I am alone, in a sea of people whose language I can’t speak. I am accepting it, everyday. I prefer companionship, I am a Libra after all… but before that time comes again where I will have solitude no more, I understand that I should cherish this time. So, I am trying. But, I already knew that I felt this way. So as much as I am learning about the nature of others I am also learning about myself. I am an independent person who loves to love to love ya, is there something wrong with that? What is anything if you have no one to share it with? In my eyes, everything is nothing when you can’t share it with someone you love. That’s KINDA the only reason I write these blogs you know. Also why I decided to begin posting photos on facebook since I’ve moved here.
“Each time we face our fear, we gain strength, courage, and confidence in the doing.”
Happy Day of Birth to my dear beautiful cousin in Heaven, we miss you tremendously.
To all my friends and family whom I love and cherish so deeply, I am so lucky to have you xo.
24 days 'til Christmas!
